the perfect beauty

The sheepish smile that the sun made was pretty enchanting to every eyes that were gazing at her. Indeed, it was an unbearable beauty that caused the other stars in the galaxy to fume with such jealousy. I can do nothing but to just observe, while rolling my astounded eyes to every side of the world. Somehow, the blue and orange painted sky were the one that triumphantly caught my eyes. It was so beautiful. Too beautiful that I do not offer myself to blink. I wouldn’t want to gasp with such regrets for letting the beauty escapes from my vision. Eardrums of mine were tangling with the echoes from the blustery wind while i , myself was enjoying the breeze through the pores of my skin. Sound of the angry waves that battered the shore made the scene more vivacious.

As soon as I shifted my gaze back at the real world, there he was, gliding his steps down the invisible aisle towards me. The cluttered hair of his were pushed by the wind recklessly but he was too busy praising the most exquisite smile that I’ve ever laid my eyes on. Enough to burst my swollen heart or alleviates my brittle bones. I was about to lose myself to the gravity for that. For a moment there, the beauty that I’ve witnessed were no longer vital. For he, was purely unbeatable. I’d cease my breathe right away if the visage of him were gone from my glimpse. My heart beats were thumping faster than his footsteps. It was getting louder and louder that I fear it would finally hurt itself, hurt me. I could do nothing but to inhale as many oxygen as possible for the sake of my swelling heart—- God was being utterly biased when he was creating this divine masterpiece I’d say. That speaks for his incredible beauty. He was far more precious than a gold to me , for he was a part of me. He’s my lover, my best friend. A vindication for my heart to beat, or to speak. I’d do anything. Anything to keep his heart from stopping nor abide a scratch.

The devastating spaces that separated us two few seconds ago were now vanishing itself into the middle of the deep blue ocean. I felt as if my heart actually dropped itself into my fluttering stomach and went back into place. Realizing that he is already standing faultlessly in front of me. I liberated my psyched eyes around him, scrutinizing every details of his flawless face, until my eyes actually met his. I could feel my fresh blood that were rushing underneath my skin were trickling themselves to my cheeks all at once, causing them to burn.

‘ Aren’t you just being plainly selfish to treasure this beautiful twilight on your own my love ?’ Those were the words that were flirting with my eardrums before he pressed his alluring red lips on mine. Particles of the air were now pervaded by the odor of his breath. I could sense the sleepy sun, and the ocean starring with envy. The moment was just too perfect that i'd live eternally for this to last.

to be continued

truth to bear

The silence that covered up half the ticking clock antagonized me to not waste another second. I realized how i've already wasted half of my breathing period, dawdling underneath this familiar roof for several years now. I've been concealing myself behind my very own invisible shield created by my cluttered mind itself. The lining of the shield somehow corrodes every now and then which cause me such pain to bear. Letting the razor-edged thoughts soon to be woes to kiss my fragile cells. Hurting the organ that is pumping torpidly beneath my chest. The organ that kept me alive. That kept me breathing in this air to feel more like a human. It was breaking, and i need to stop it from breaking. I can't let it break. I could not let it be shattered into oodles of little pieces and endure such eternal ache. It felt so atrocious as if my heart had been administered by a sharp-eyed knife straight through my heart. But, i am just an impotent human being. Too impotent that i could not even stand on my bare feet nor halt this entire vocation of my life. Never in my life had i ever felt this weak. So, it is still breaking. Once, i felt that i was just dragging my soulless corpse around , being entirely dead. I never knew how does it feel to be alive. To feel normal. I could do nothing. Nothing but to make way for the tiny holes in my eyes for all the tears to run away. Finding a better place to stay.


written by sara lisa